May

Happy May Beauties,

So, I have just uploaded a video to YouTube (I'll leave a link below!) and it's about my taking a break from YouTube videos/some social media. I am fully aware that my viewers aren't thousands, however as a sign of respect to those that DO watch my videos when I upload, here is a better explanation.

As my previous posts or videos (and Tumblr blog especially) would suggest, I struggle with a few mental health issues. Things aren't as bad as they were this time last year, however, they're not great either. I started a YouTube channel with the hope that I could help others, as well as simply enjoy a little hobby. But, it might sort have got to a point where I'm not in the best mindset to be uploading videos, without overthinking every statistic and view...whilst constantly comparing my stats to others. I don't believe that the number of views is what's important, but it can mess with your self-esteem...especially when it's low enough haha.

When my brother first suggested YouTube to me, I promised to stick with it and not give up. I don't think taking a break is me giving up, but rather having a little time to really sort things out. May is also my exam month, meaning stress levels are super high... (the struggles of wanting to succeed in life haha! Everyone knows the feeling, but it's just something we have to go through, right?)

The Islamic month of Ramadan is also coming up, and I feel the need to reconnect with my faith and really let the Holy month cleanse me spiritually, emotionally and physically.

If you're still reading this then you get 13 brownie points, because you are one lovely person x

I hope this doesn't come across as too personal, but I felt like it needed a proper blogpost.

Take care,

Hana

:) x