Friday, 7 July 2017

Recovery Reassurance: Extreme Hunger

Extreme hunger. It’s real! I am writing this, as back when I was going through it, I searched Google, looked through every blog post, looked at forums and watched as many videos as I could. It’s a scary yet somewhat freeing thing to go through.

First of all, extreme hunger is NORMAL when you’ve restricted. Here’s some information about it:

‘You will most likely experience extreme hunger in eating disorder recovery. You eat, eat, eat and never seem to get full. You may be physically full but still feel you want to eat more! You feel like a crazy Foodzilla who is about to make an end to the world’s food supply.

The normal amount of food seems to not satisfy you (even the 2500-3000 calorie recovery recommendations) and you think you just have a binge eating disorder! You feel hungry, but not hungry. You feel “empty”, but you know that you are physically full. You feel like a bottomless bit. Ready to inhale all food at once! BAM! – it’s gone! Next!

If you start recovery from any kind of eating disorder or just past of dieting and restriction, having extreme hunger is normal and it will pass! It is your body’s response to the previous restriction. Sometimes, when we have gone through extreme restriction like eating disorders and dieting we might temporarily need to go to the other extreme and eat in large amounts to actually restore balance!’

I don’t remember my food intake as such with extreme hunger, but some ‘binges’ I do remember (it’s important to know that it isn’t actually binge eating – it’s your body trying to get in as much food as possible, due to restriction. You won’t develop BED or bulimia, as long as you don’t restrict, purge and make sure to follow your cravings – no matter how much food your body wants):

-        -  My first meal was Quorn chicken nuggets and chips. But it wasn’t enough. So I ate 2 servings of cheesecake, ice cream and slices of plain bread, straight from the loaf…Just because I felt so mentally hungry and dissatisfied.

-         -  One morning, I finished a whole packet of ginger biscuits and still felt ravenous, so I had a pint of ice cream – as breakfast. It’s all about following the cravings. I’m pretty sure I still felt hungry after.

-         -  I’d also eat ‘sharing bags’ of crisps and chocolate...In one night.

As long as you follow cravings – it WILL end. Trust me. It may take a while, but it won’t last forever.

My extreme hunger ended about 5/6 months into my real recovery. I do occasionally have points where I do eat more than normal, but this is normally reactive eating, due to undereating days before. I now feel full quickly and couldn’t finish a packet of biscuits even if I tried…I’d feel sick! And this is from someone who ate whole packets of biscuits daily during extreme hunger. I rarely have biscuits now, but if I do, it’s only a few. Also, a pint of ice cream now lasts me about a week…whereas during extreme hunger I’d have a pint daily. 

Just believe me when I say, it’s OKAY to crave anything and everything. Listen to your hunger, even if you eat over 4000 calories...Your body NEEDS it. 

Also remember that the extreme hunger may be longer or shorter for you. I was anorexic for about 3 years, so the length may have an impact. 

Feel free to leave a comment or message me if you have any questions or need any support.

Take care x

Quotes from:
http://followtheintuition.com/extreme-hunger-and-bingeing-in-recovery/

It's Been Too Long

Hi! 

I hope you're okay. I've been away in hospital, then at work, trying to recover. I'll be posting recovery related posts, hopefully to reassure someone out there - just like I need reassurance through the different stages of recovery. I hope you like the posts that are to come.

I'll be posting here, but for a prettier website, check my wix one!

http://itshanamahmoud13.wixsite.com/ohhsohana

Take care,

Hana.

Wednesday, 4 May 2016

#ProjectPositive

Hiya!

Happy May lovelies, hope you're all well. I have just uploaded a video on my YouTube channel where I discuss a new little movement I want to do this month.

#ProjectPositive is a way in which I will document a positive thing from each day on my Twitter and Tumblr, with the aim to better my outlook on life. I was always known as the 'positive' person in a group; continuously looking at the good things in every situation possible. Over the last few years, my mental health (I struggle with depression, anxiety and an eating disorder) has deteriorated and I find myself in a constant state of self-hate and self-destruction, with many negative thoughts about myself, the world and how people see me. Therefore, I'm creating this challenge to benefit anyone that wants to get involved.

I hope you can join in with me and focus on the good parts of the day, no matter how small it may be!

Love and Hugs,

Hana!

Take CARE and spread the WORD! (thank you!)

My YouTube Channel:

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCm7amez4U_eVJxBbDDJlBKQ

Saturday, 16 April 2016

Spring Lookbook

Hiya lovely reader,

I hope you are well and enjoying Spring so far. Unlike many bloggers, I don't identify as a fashion blogger whatsoever, however I enjoy doing lookbooks or OOTDs every now and then (as you can see through some of my Tumblr posts and YouTube videos! Links below!)

In Spring, the weather is generally warmer yet there's still a chill in the air, even on sunny days. Therefore, I typically stick to wearing more than one layer; with cardigans being my best friend haha (as you will be able to tell in my videos).

A further 'fashion' point to make is the fact that I am trying to get back into wearing skirts more than trousers. Although I enjoy wearing trousers and jeans, I am trying to go down a more 'modest' route regarding my clothing. I won't be eliminating trousers completely as I think they're necessary! (How am I meant to cycle or hike in a skirt y'know?)

Basically, I'm going with the flow fashion-wise and wearing things I like. Like everyone else I find myself wearing the same things repeatedly, so I've been making a conscious effort to wear all of the lovely clothes I own - and not.simply.what.is.conveniently.on.top.of.my.pile.of.clothes! Additionally, any clothes I don't wear often and am unlikely to wear, I give to charity - someone else may love it better than me :)

Leave a comment on my video saying which outfit is your favourite and if you found the link through here - I'm simply curious :P Haha!

http://ohhsohana.tumblr.com/

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCm7amez4U_eVJxBbDDJlBKQ

Take care,

Hana x

Wednesday, 3 February 2016

Ways To Cope With Changes.

Hiya Lovelies,

It's been a while! It feels like my life has been all over the place lately and I thought I'd use my experience to try and give some advice.

The link is below!

Take care!

Hana x

https://youtu.be/s21DkxeP5iI

Wednesday, 6 January 2016

2016!

Hiya,

I hope your New Years Eve and day went super well. I'm not one to go for the whole 'new year, new me' vibe because I feel like it's the same old thing every year! Thus, I don't make new year's resolutions! However, I have made goals....and a video about it! A few of them include:

1. Pass my A-Levels and get to the next stage in life (academically/career-wise).
2. Read more books than last year.
3. Make photos, posts and videos more meaningful.
4. Work on recovery and things I want to achieve through it.

Have you got any 'goals' you want to achieve? 

And remember: "Sometimes it's the smallest decisions that can change your life forever." - Keri Russell.

The video link is here: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCm7amez4U_eVJxBbDDJlBKQ

Wednesday, 25 November 2015

Reclaim Your Heart | Book Review

Good Morning/Afternoon/Evening,

Hope your day is going exceptionally well. 

So as I stated in a recent post, I got Yasmin Mogahed's book 'Reclaim Your Heart' and oh my days...it is incredible! I literally limited myself to the number of pages I could read a day because I didn't want to finish it too quickly! Every chapter, page and paragraph got to me; some parts making me both emotional and hopeful.

This book is Yasmin's perspective on her struggles in life - with a spiritual (religious) approach. It explains why and how we should react to issues like loss, sadness and even things that aren't as bad as that! The book opens with a number of comments from readers, thanking Mogahed for her continuous wisdom and way of interpreting what happens in this life. She expresses herself and sends her message to readers in such a graceful way - with beautiful metaphors being used as well as using nature as a way to symbolise human beings and our behaviours. 

I would highly recommend anyone with struggles (let's face it - we all have our issues) read it. It'd also be an excellent read for anyone wanting to convert/revert to Islam; as it shows some true dedication to Islam, no matter what troubles one may will face. 

If you have read this brilliant book, or plan to, let me know what you think! 

P.S. I have a video up with me talking about the book too! 

Find me on YouTube: OhhSoHana


Wednesday, 4 November 2015

Do Something You Love

"I want to release the words that flow so easily - like the River Nile - without the fear of being deducted - like the victim of a crime, who is pitied. I want my words to erupt like a volcano, having an eloquent impact."

I'm not sure if I've mentioned this before but I have a love/hate relationship with my poetry and writing. I love it! However I don't feel like I'm very good at it. Despite this, I'm trying to do it regardless!

Therefore, I want to suggest that you do what you love, even if you don't feel too good at it! Practice, practice and practice. You don't need to perfect everything you do.

Tip of the day: Do something you love (providing it's not self-destructive!) - even if you've been put down for it before.

Hana :) x

Wednesday, 28 October 2015

Reclaim Your Heart

Hello,

I got Yasmin Mogahed's Reclaim Your Heart book (yay - been wanting to get it for a while!) and found this paragraph pretty inspirational.

"There's something amazing about this life. The very same worldly attribute that causes us pain is also what gives us relief: Nothing here lasts. What does that mean? It means that the breathtakingly beautiful rose in my vase will wither tomorrow. It means that my youth will neglect me. But it also means that the sadness I feel today will change tomorrow. My pain will die. My laughter won't last forever - but neither will my tears. We say this life isn't perfect. And it isn't. It isn't perfectly good. But, it also isn't perfectly bad, either."

Tip of the day: Pick out something positive in your day.

Hana 

:) x 

Wednesday, 21 October 2015

Grief and Loss

Hello all,

Last week my little sister's hamster passed away and it's safe to say that it led to quite a few tears. However, it got me thinking...do we take things for granted? To lots of people that don't have pets, it's weird to imagine why someone would cry over an animal. Don't they get attacked in the wild? Aren't there lots of bigger problems in the world? And the answer is 'yes'.

I want to bring awareness to the fact that no matter what, we all have something or someone that we may be taking for granted. With thousands of children dying on a daily basis, many families struggling and lots of people homeless; we should pause a minute and be thankful for what we have got. I think many people - including myself - forget how quickly something can be taken away. Nothing is 100% promised.

Sorry if this seems a bit negative, but let's look at it in a positive light - share the love to all things and people around you.

Take care,

Hana :) x

Saturday, 17 October 2015

Book Haul

Hello lovelies,

I hope your weekend is going well and that you haven't caught the flu that seems to be going around! 

Today I went into town and came across an Oxfam charity shop in a side street. I could have spent absolutely hours in the shop! Despite being small, it was packed with books of different genres; romance, drama, thriller, cooking and baking, gardening, history, geography, fiction, non-fiction, children's and many, many more! There were also many cute handmade things, such as cushions - as well as fancy chocolates, sweets, teas, coffees and snacks. 

With all the books available, I literally didn't know where to start. There were a number of books that I'd never heard of, and many that are quite popular - such as Life Of Pi, Harry Potter, Gone Girl and The Hunger Games. Of course, you couldn't find whole series of books, due to the books being donated, making them a one-off. Nevertheless, there were still lots and lots of options! However, I ended up with these three.




I tend to get all my books from charity shops, not only are they cheaper (these were '3 for £5') but you're also helping the charity by buying from their stock :) 

I'll leave an Oxfam link below - as I was really impressed by their professionalism and kindness!


Also, have you seen my latest Book Reviews on YouTube?



Hana 

x

Wednesday, 26 August 2015

Cornwall

Hiya readers,

Hope the rest of your summer is going swimmingly (pun intended...you'll see what I mean in a bit!) and that it's been a good one. I recently visited Cornwall, and tend to annually. I feel that sometimes these sorts of areas aren't visited, by foreigners especially. However, there's so much of 'England' that can be discovered in places like Cornwall; castles, pasties and pubs - which will almost always have some veggie options for adults, kids and families that may not eat meat for personal beliefs or religious beliefs (which is the case for us). Although London is the most popular city in England - it isn't the ONLY place! There are so many beautiful places in the UK which have incredible views and are more relaxing. Places like Cornwall and Devon have beautiful beaches as well as gardens, castles and amusement parks. Of course, England being England - the weather will most probably dictate how much enjoyment you actually get :)

When we went for the long weekend that we did, it was pouring down with rain - meaning the flawless views were essentially ruined. Luckily the next day was much clearer and the beach was an option that many families took advantage of.

Below I'll post a few photos I took! Hope you enjoyed this quick read and personal (yet widely agreed) opinion.

Take care,

Hana :) x





Wednesday, 12 August 2015

Unpopular Opinion: Make-up & Cosmetics

Hello lovelies,

Today's post is one that may be slightly odd, especially due to the fact that my make-up skills are probably less that Ron's "emotional range of a teaspoon" (Harry Potter references are sometimes a must!) In other words, I'm not a make-up or beauty guru. However, in my latest video, I give a brief history on make-up and then my personal opinion or 'relationship' with it. I could have gone into depth and had a massive debate about whether businesses simply steal our money or if in fact it is a way to empower women, but I decided to keep it short and simple (and also confusing...sorry!)

If you would like to watch it, I'll leave the link below! If the three minutes of me talking may bore you :P then here is the overall idea:

If make-up and cosmetics make you feel happier, and it works for you, then that's great! However, if you feel pressured to wear make-up or look a certain way, don't be ashamed to be outside of the stereotypical definition of beauty. As the cliche' saying goes, 'Be Your Own Kind Of Beautiful!' 
P.S. Don't ever shame people for their choices (!!!!) - whether they decide to wear make-up and use cosmetics, or decide it isn't for them.

Take care,

Hana :) x

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ABWo9HebDag

Wednesday, 24 June 2015

Yasmin Mogahed

Good Morning/Afternoon/Evening lovelies,

Today I am going to briefly discuss Yasmin Mogahed. She is titled as a 'Public Figure' on her Facebook page, and I'm sure you'll find that you've read a quote by her before. So, without further-a-do I shall talk about the reason behind this blog post.

A couple of years back I attended several 'Islamic Lectures', to which started off well! However, overtime the lectures felt more intense less helpful, but instead quite frightening. Needless to say it messed with my head! This is why I value Yasmin's talks so much. The way she speaks/writes show her wisdom and the true beauty of Islam, without coming across as harsh.

Here I'll copy a piece of writing from her book 'Reclaim Your Heart'! And I think you'll be able to see why I like her talks so much! Enjoy! Hana x

'And yet, in society, there is another prevalent “master” which has defined for women their worth. And that is the so-called standard of beauty. Since the time we were little, we as women, have been taught a very clear message by society. And that message is: “Be thin. Be sexy. Be attractive. Or…be nothing.”
So we were told to put on their make-up and wear their short skirts. Instructed to give our lives, our bodies, our dignity for the cause of being pretty. We came to believe that no matter what we did, we were worthy only to the degree that we could please and be beautiful for men. So we spent our lives on the cover of Cosmo and we gave our bodies for advertisers to sell.
We were slaves, but they taught us we were free. We were their object, but they swore it was success. Because they taught you that the purpose of your life was to be on display, to attract and be beautiful for men. They had you believe that your body was created to market their cars.
But they lied.
Your body, your soul was created for something higher. Something so much higher.'

Wednesday, 17 June 2015

My Ramadan Tips

Happy Wednesday :)

I filmed a Ramadan special the other day where I suggested some things to alter in your everyday life in order to hopefully benefit you!

As a reminder, this is a reminder to myself first and foremost.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZU41AZR4mLk

If you don't have the time to watch the 5 minute video, then I'll quickly bullet point some of the points that I mentioned:


  • Smile and give more 'Salam'.
  • Wear less make-up (therefore, focusing on your inner self).
  • Cook for your family.
  • Read Quran.
  • Teach a sibling, friend, etc., something valuable, i.e. Quran.
  • Gift someone something meaningful, such as a prayer mat.
Have a happy Ramadan!

Ramadan Kareem x

Saturday, 16 May 2015

Photo Editing

Hiya lovelies ❤

Here are a few pictures that I have edited by using two main apps that I love!

Afterlight: I have paid for the full version (around £1 - £2) and I really like how quick and easy it is! I used to brighten and contrast my pictures dramatically haha...but now I prefer a more faded and natural-looking filter! I then use Square InstaPic just to create a white border and make sure it's square (so that it's easier to post on Instagram, make into a profile photo, etc.)

I've gone through loaaaads of photography and editing apps over the past few years and I like constantly experimenting with them!

Hana x

Wednesday, 6 May 2015

May

Happy May Beauties,

So, I have just uploaded a video to YouTube (I'll leave a link below!) and it's about my taking a break from YouTube videos/some social media. I am fully aware that my viewers aren't thousands, however as a sign of respect to those that DO watch my videos when I upload, here is a better explanation.

As my previous posts or videos (and Tumblr blog especially) would suggest, I struggle with a few mental health issues. Things aren't as bad as they were this time last year, however, they're not great either. I started a YouTube channel with the hope that I could help others, as well as simply enjoy a little hobby. But, it might sort have got to a point where I'm not in the best mindset to be uploading videos, without overthinking every statistic and view...whilst constantly comparing my stats to others. I don't believe that the number of views is what's important, but it can mess with your self-esteem...especially when it's low enough haha.

When my brother first suggested YouTube to me, I promised to stick with it and not give up. I don't think taking a break is me giving up, but rather having a little time to really sort things out. May is also my exam month, meaning stress levels are super high... (the struggles of wanting to succeed in life haha! Everyone knows the feeling, but it's just something we have to go through, right?)

The Islamic month of Ramadan is also coming up, and I feel the need to reconnect with my faith and really let the Holy month cleanse me spiritually, emotionally and physically.

If you're still reading this then you get 13 brownie points, because you are one lovely person x

I hope this doesn't come across as too personal, but I felt like it needed a proper blogpost.

Take care,

Hana

:) x

Thursday, 16 April 2015

What Shall I DO?

Hiya people of the internet!

I hope all of you are okay and having a good week so far! (It's finally Friday tomorrow, yay!)

So, as you may - or may not - know already, I am in my first year of A Levels. I take three subjects (round of applause to those who take four...or even five) and it is exhausting. However, just because I'm doing A Levels, it doesn't mean I want to go to university. You see, I'm in a bit of a muddle when it comes to what I want to do. So I made a video with a few things that are options for or instead of Higher Education.

I hope the video potentially helps! It is quite brief, however, once he topic is one I'm more knowledgeable on, I may make a part two!

Leave me a comment letting me know what you think you might do!

Take care,

Hana x

Link: Higher Education?

Thursday, 9 April 2015

Red My Lips

Hiya!

Today I'll be talking briefly about a campaign called 'Red My Lips'. April is Sexual Assault Awareness Month with various things taking place in order to increase knowledge about the issue. Red My Lips ask people to wear red lipstick, nail varnish, etc., in order to help fight the stigma that red is a colour that brings with it sexual attention. I made a video on the campaign and will link it below.

Red My Lips Video!

Will you be participating? :)

Hana x

Friday, 3 April 2015

Thank God, It's Friday!

Why hello there,

I hope your April is going well so far and that you're happy about the upcoming weekend.

I thought that today I'd put together a few things you can do over the weekend that people may forget to do!

1. Go on a picnic:

Living in the UK, there are many public parks, that are often underused....unless it's the summer! So why not pop over to your local park with family, friends or even by yourself. The fresh air will do you good!

2. Cycle, walk or jog:

I haven't done this in a while and despite it being Spring the weather isn't the best. BUT providing you're dressed correctly, why not try a bit of light exercise? This could really boost your energy up and help you feel better physically and emotionally.

3. Photography:

If you are into photography, why not go to a nearby quiet area to take photos. It'll undoubtedly make you feel proud once you're back home flicking through the artistic photos you've taken!

4. Anything Else:

If photography isn't your thing, here are several other relaxing things you can do instead...which will lead to the same results in terms of satisfaction (hopefully).

- Arts and Crafts, e.g. card making, drawing, painting.
- Baking.
- Helping someone, e.g. donating a bit of money, time or giving a gift.
- Making someone smile/laugh (FIY, this can be yourself!)
- Cooking for your family or friends.
- Tidying up your room.
- Doing some light revision, such as revision posters which will help you feel relieved. This can be as colourful and creative as you want, so it's much less boring.

I hope this motivated some of you reading.

Have a lovely weekend,

Take Care,

Hana xoxo