It's Been Too Long

Hi! 

I hope you're okay. I've been away in hospital, then at work, trying to recover. I'll be posting recovery related posts, hopefully to reassure someone out there - just like I need reassurance through the different stages of recovery. I hope you like the posts that are to come.

I'll be posting here, but for a prettier website, check my wix one!

http://itshanamahmoud13.wixsite.com/ohhsohana

Take care,

Hana.

Photo Editing

Hiya lovelies ❤

Here are a few pictures that I have edited by using two main apps that I love!

Afterlight: I have paid for the full version (around £1 - £2) and I really like how quick and easy it is! I used to brighten and contrast my pictures dramatically haha...but now I prefer a more faded and natural-looking filter! I then use Square InstaPic just to create a white border and make sure it's square (so that it's easier to post on Instagram, make into a profile photo, etc.)

I've gone through loaaaads of photography and editing apps over the past few years and I like constantly experimenting with them!

Hana x

Insecurities

Hiya lovelies,

This post is going to be quite similar to one I wrote previously. I came across a few more poems that I wrote a while back. I tend to write poetry when I feel I want to express something but don't know how to. It sort of helps putting the words on paper and I end up feeling better and often satisfied. My style of writing is quite simple and I know there are so many better writers out there. However, here it is:

"Her eyes sparkled,
They were often full of love.
When she smiled,
She radiated a special kind of light.
It was rare though,
Not because she was miserable,
Nor was she ungrateful.
But she was insecure.
It wasn't for attention,
It wasn't planned or rehearsed.
People would compliment her,
Every now and then,
But she didn't believe them.
She wasn't trying to be awkward,
But she just didn't feel it.
But you know what?
She truly, purely is beautiful."

I think the poem itself is pretty clear! So many of us are so insecure about different features we have. Dealing with insecurities is hard and if I'm completely honest, I still deal with them in a really negative way. I'm not here to try and act like I know what I'm doing. Nor am I going to try and tell you what to do. However, I can try to help :)

Every single person out there deals with some sort of insecurity. Even if they appear confident, chances are - they actually aren't. As humans we pick out our flaws and focus on them. We rarely ever focus on the things we like about ourselves. But if we really think about it...why does our appearance matter so much? You don't need to be society's version of pretty to enjoy things like cycling, travelling and painting. We focus so much on bettering our external appearance, that we forget that what's inside is what truly matters.

I know we've all heard this lots of times, so its meaning is probably losing its value. But, really, people aren't going to hang around you for what you look like. It's hard to believe and remember that. And as I've previously said, I feel like I shouldn't say it as it seems hypocritical...but I do genuinely believe it. It's so difficult to try and see past society's definition of beauty and see that beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

Therefore, to conclude my little post, I challenge you to name 5 things you like about yourself. They can be physical features or anything else that you admire about yourself.

I hope this was a bit of an eye opener and that it helped anyone who read it.

Lots of love and take care,

Hana.

Little Update

Hiya, hope you're doing well and that your week is going well :)

This post is probably going to seem quite informal, however, I feel it needs to be very me, as it's going to be quite honest.

This past week has been quite emotional and difficult. My eating disorder (I'll make a full blog post all about my eating disorder when I feel ready) really overtook my mind - much more than normal. I've felt extra confused, lost and hopeless lately, however today has been more positive so I decided it was time to post again :)

I'm in my second year of university and won't be finishing the semester as I need to seek treatment as soon as I can, before it's too late. My mum, siblings and I are moving back to England next month so hopefully then I'll be posting much more. I also plan on making a YouTube channel sometime this year, but I'm going to be focusing on my blog.

I really feel like I want to be able to help others dealing with mental illnesses, as well as give support and help to anyone who needs it. I don't know what's going to happen within the next year, but I do know that I'll need to try and focus on recovery. Hopefully, I'll also do things I enjoy and be able to regain my freedom and happiness...and I'd like to use this blog to document that. I won't only upload personal day-to-day posts, as I know that's not what everyone wants to read. However, they definitely will be uploaded - so be prepared :P

I'm not expecting to get lots of views to be honest, but if I can help at least one reader, I'll be pleased :) This is starting to sound a bit like my first post. I just want to get the message across that I deal with some issues, as does everyone, and my blog might occasionally reflect that. I also feel quite excited about moving back to England, however, I know recovery won't be easy. As I'm feeling quite positive at the moment, I want to add a little inspiring quote:

"We all have bad days, but one thing is true; no cloud is so dark that the sun can't shine through."
- Miranda Kerr

Everyone deals with problems of some sort. Don't be quick to judge others on their actions as we don't know what they're coping with. When in the depth of our issues, things seem very difficult and upsetting. However, if we stay hopeful and believe that we can get through it, then that will definitely help! It all sounds cliche' and even hypocritical - but, it's true. We go through stages in our lives - the good ones, and then the not so good ones. Our mistakes, illnesses, memories and choices all contribute to the person we become.

So next time you feel upset, know that:

• It will get better. It might take a while, but it will.
• Worrying about it too much won't help.
• One day it'll be a little contribution to who you are.
• Spending time with people who love you, or even spending time with yourself doing something you love, will help.
• You can contact me anytime and I'll try to help too (where to find me will be posted below).

This post was a little random, but it was also from the heart...and sort of necessary for me to post. Thank you to those of you who have taken the time to read this.
Take care xoxo
Hana



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